Understanding Mozart and new shoes

U listeners to lot of music by Mozart and we discussed all that he did in his life.

Also you flaunted your new shoes that fit u so perfectly now.

One gif of Yooki u would love

Arati and yookis first coffee date + other stuff

Video is on Instagram. Zain uncle went to get jio SIM card and I was getting confused on edit so we took this op to chill in la folie lab - had freshly made chocolate croissant and mocha. Too much chocolate - u were amazing there and I really had one of the best coffee dates of my life with my curious and cuddly little daughter.

Some pics of weekend

Some photos of an evening

Missing out on smiles and tears

I guess not many people understand the stress a new mother goes through esp when she has to balance both work and baby.

There is this instinct that is programmed in our dna of dropping everything and caring for the baby and then there is this instinct where one wants to have a good career as well - make great movies and leave that with you for legacy.

Yesterday was one such day! I had a fight with Zain when you were in my arms over some casting. Now with half a decade of working together I guess we mince no words in putting each other down. On one hand I like the challenge of his company on the other hand I hate the negativity it brings. And the energy it saps. One has to choose day to day battles. So I give up on edit of things I shot when you were born coz I cannot apply myself for more than 2 hours. I give up on perfection of ego advertisements. But I don't give up on movies coz I feel they are my legacy to you.
I don't know one day you might come running to me crying and say mummy your movies are not worth it for me and I will drop them all too. I love you so so much. Your every tear hurts the deepest of my heart and your every smile brightens up my skies.

For now I want to carry you everywhere with me- in my arms -to script discussions, to my sets, to edits. I want to collaborate with people whom I can bank on, to delegate to successfully. I dont want to miss out on you.

I want to be bankable and patient too. I want to Smile more, be happy longer. I want to give you my childhood. I was taking to a nanny and told her - you have to talk softly to the baby and smile a lot around her. And then I tell her but I like to give her bath and carry her so you carry her only when I tell u to. I guess that's a dichotomy that you start facing when u become a mom.

End of Nasik fun

Already back and missing

Todo: Integrate with previous blog entry

3 interesting things

1) So I wanted to tell you something interesting - you know that worms becomes butterflies and inside the pupae the whole silkworm disintegrates at cellular level and then the whole butterfly is formed. But it is found that the butterfly still retains the memory of the worm.. So the memories are not stored in the worms brain but somewhere else maybe cells but do cells have the capacity to retain memories ?

2) When Mendel made his first dictionary in 1862, he added a word Shrugan - it spoke about a tree in Amazon rain forest that gives birth to birds and the birds lay eggs that becomes those trees. In 1999 a German guy noticed that word and asked his naturalist friends go search for it but it was not found. The tree never existed but a word for it did.

3) Last thing is about origami. There is a myth that if you make 1000 origami flowers, you are granted a wish.