I am really worried

About you starting on solid food in a month. Sometimes I even worry if I will be a good mother. Yesterday your nanny was holding you - putting u to sleep and chit-chatting to the other maid. I scolded her and took u away and put you on my lap while I was making rough sketches for poster of trapped by vm and played music. After all I want you to grow up to be creative and motivated and not just someone occupied by domestic things.
I like to take care of domestic things but I feel they are operational stuff. The real deal and creative stuff only few people can do and you should put your time and energy there.